Me and my First have been getting along well but now is the second day with out a word from her. I have this feeling what was said between us was a stalemate or a holding. I cant loose hope though.. I'll battle another dragon if i have to. Hitting rock bottom sucks a major donkey. I've been ignoring the messages from my former angel. or atleast i tried to she again tells me she still loves me. In some way i dont beleive her, but every inch of me wants to so much it hurts. she even has told me that there might be a chance for us again one day. I smiled at the thought of it....another day passes... and into a third.. i got not message from her yesterday none at all today she says shes going off for the weekend.. i asked where to she tells me to another knights castle. rage builds up in me whinst i found out who's. I raised my sword up into the air and cracked it length ways across my knee breaking it in half. i then grabbed my amulet and chunked it across the room in anger. i pick up the peices of my sword to continue my words towards her. knowing im only to blame for beleiving all over again that there was a chance. fucking bitch, i hate being lead on like a puppet.