I've noticed how some people have this need to use there own insecurities to do there best to try and form others into there own image. A person can tell you i dont like being like this or i dont wanna be like that etc.. but in the end when they are confronted with making a decision when it comes to others they tend to rub off the things they hate the most. Is it because they want others to feel the same fucking shit they have felt? or is it the factuality that no matter how one try's to change they cant do it with out others? Me, i think its the latter. A person can tell you over and over i'll never do that to you ever but in the end do you exactly as they have been done or have already done to others. The quier thing is i know there is a few out there that is open enough to lay it all on the line just to give another a chance, even when they know they are doomed. call it compassion, call it forgiveness, or what ever you want. In the past year i've learned alot, and i've changed alot. I know ive put my own feelings on the line more than once and gotten burned each and every fucking time. Some may say i fall easy.. yeah i do but that dont mean i dont put forth 100%. I've tried to live by the golden rule, but get fucked over because i wasnt treated with the same respect. "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you". cut a fucker a break. More and more life goes on the more i look around and see people twist that one saying into "Do unto others before they do unto you". People so fucking scared there gonna get fucked over by others that they dont even give anyone else a chance even when if it came down to it, they would want others to give them one themselves. look at me im fucking talking in circles. Fact is no one cares about jack shit. I'm tired of the games played. I went on a long drive this past weekend looked over milwalkee from a distance and seen how small things looked inside, i began to wonder how many people could be in a city that large and how many names where there that no one would ever know. Talk about anonomous..huh, it will ether make you feel like you want to get sucked in with it so no one would ever know you. or it would repulse you to where you would want to puke up chunks. I meet some great people this weekend though, kicked back drank my zima and just let it all slide by. It got my mind off shit for a while and here i am as soon as i come back 2 days later and im up on the podeium, a master know it all scholar. Sit with me on my soap box and judge me again, and ill end this with a theme of life "forfiet all my lives to get just one right" adieu to the games played.