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I should be outside, standing on rooftops, screaming to the heavens with a clenched fist, hurling invectives and curses at the Gods, the Fates, the Heavenly Host, and the Almighty Creator of the Universe for all of the injustices they've done me. I think there's something to be said about life in this. At least, something about the human condition, which is as much a bag of contradictions as it is a bag of shit you set afire on someones porch at halloween. I think that what upsets me the most about my angel is the fact that she doesn't want to return any of my potential affections. I have all of this emotion stored up inside me, like a battery charged up i been doing all i can to keep it from storing to much up and over whelming my mind. i think it will cause me to have a mental condition that will hurt me in the long run. ive been getting these feelings that in the end ill turn out cold hearted. it worries the piss out of me to no end. i want to be able to feel and to love. It seems as if the moe i try not too the more i get slapped back onto the wrong track. GOD DAMN this train i want off it!!!