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To day i sit back and really thought about how much life blows goats. It seems that no matter what you do or try to do, something all ways keeps you from acheiving the few goals you set for your self. "Im not gonna let the crap beat me" a say to my self over and over. I've come to the conclusion that things will happen wether we want them to or not. sometimes i get to where i don't care if they do or not. I'll just bury myself in my shell and tell the rest of the world to fuck off. Ok i've had it, im threw just go ahead n put the gun in your mouth ya cockhead, laughing out loud. yeah and spend my eternity wondering the earth watching others do and go threw the same crap as me!! na i dont think so. besides, the few people i give a rats ass about i wouldnt do that to them. i think life is a big joke, my earliest memories are of but a black void. makes you wonder what that higher being was thinkin when he created such a pitiful race, people suck live with it. my time sitting in chat rooms watchin how people respond to each other has been funny. you see people sitting there tryin to act bad, like they "the shit" or some crap like others pay attention to them. yeah just long enough to put your ass on ignore. Makes you wonder how many of the people you talk to or interact with are who they say they are. "hi my names duhh and im 24 years old" when the reality is, they are 14 and barely outta there diapers. Kids raised up in a world that tries to push kids to grow up to fast to the point they miss out on there childhood. and once there childhood is over they spend the rest of there life going "what ever happened to my childhood". makes you wonder if they should have even been born. I think we where put here to enjoy life, but we've made it into something that you end up tryin to please everyone else except yourself threw out your life. bad thing is i find my self doing that all the time putting others first and forgetting the things id rather do. only a few people in my life id do anything for n they know who they are. its funny how when i was younger, i kept tellin my self i didnt ever wanna get married and id never wanna have kids or have the responsibility for any. funny how things change eh! ya hit that age n go BAMM! "what the heck was i thinkin". im gettin to that point now where i feel im blabering about nonsence, which i probly am. well only question is when will this crappy existance ever end. just go and crawl back into my shell n watch it go by until its my time.