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As i feared moving on is harder than i thought, i have been able to "ignore the words" thrown at me. But it seems as if her name keeps apearing spewing from others lips. Its's like a power drill with a 3 inch hole saw on it being shoved into my abdominals. "Ignore the words", collapsing, pounding, vomiting, sqeezing them into nothingness. "Ignore the words", close my eyes once..and i meet my other. ends up a all out assault in a black room with only a spot light shining down upon us. then a low simmer hummm that builds into a grand stand full of peole for which you can only see there eyes. Grab my shield and use it like a hammer to beat into the ground that other side of me that wants what was lost back. Seems the more i bash its brains in the stronger i become, but yet there shows no dammage to my opponet. Thinks long and hard ... ("have it your way fucker. never wanted to use this but seems as if i have no other choice. i've let you do things your way for too fucking long).. kick him in the ribs and shove him in the soft crimson prison. lock the gates and bury the key. some one once told me that they had something locked away n that no one would ever be able to access the key. well im doing the same thing im not gonna let that bastard control shit anymore. My whole life hes controlled it, and what have i gotten from it.. NOT A GOD FUCKING DAMN THING.. except a broken mirrored heart. Fuck it .. im in control now (ignore the words).